Our little guy had his first run in with water balloons last weekend. Watching him pick up those slippery little balloons only to drop them and chase them around as they wobbled across the deck reminded me of myself somedays. We end up running in so many different directions, because our days can be just as unpredictable as those balloons.
I have this need to fulfill every role, perfectly, many women do. We want to be the best wife, mother, homemaker, employee, etc. For most women, it has nothing to do with competition, or meeting other people's expectations, it has to do with the expectations that we hold for ourselves. For me personally, it has to do with my desire to know that I am being exactly who God gave me the capability to be.
One of the things that spoke to me when I was at the women's conference last month was the idea of waking up each day, and asking "God, what is the ONE thing you want me to accomplish for you today?" I love that. The idea of tuning in to who the Lord needs us to be each and every day. One thing. It's so simple, and yet, there have been many days since I have returned, that I don't accomplish it. Instead of waking up saying, what one thing can I do for you, I find myself thinking things like, "God, can you give me a break today? I promise to knock out both assignments tomorrow, because today I am just too swamped..."
A little chaos is okay, because at the end of the day I get to be with the people that make it all worthwhile. My days don't always go as planned, but the outcome is always consistent. My family is healthy and happy. I handle my responsibilities, and then some. I love those in my life, and then some.
Maybe I woke up and left the house without giving myself enough time to pause and ask, "What one thing do you want me to accomplish for you today God?" But I ended the day asking, "What one thing did I do that pleased you today God?" And He answered me back, you remembered Me... and then some.
Psalms 139:14, "I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well."